i’m scared of my own mind

i just want to be happy at the end of the day

but lately, i’ve been feeling so hollow

a shell of what used to be

something is missing

or rather, misplaced

i need to find it

or rather, find myself

to reach enlightenment

i don’t know what’s wrong with me

i don’t know what i’m doing wrong

it probably is nothing

too much time thinking

overthinking

how long will this last?

i just want it to go away

i want to kill myself

the self that i don’t like

but i want to keep on living